kk i realize that its totally politically incorrect to dis handicaps, and for the most part i don't. but this one chick ... seriously ... i swear to god, having to talk with her for more than five seconds should be classified as hazard duty or something. seriously.
dunno if this has ever happened to you, but

have you EVER met someone who was
so mindbogglingly, crushingly, absolutely stupid
that ... like ...
you just can't help but
wonder if it HURTS ????

kk its not that she's slow on the uptake ... cos face it ... we all have those moments. but most of the time, we REALIZE we're saying or doing something stupid, yanno???? but this girl ... OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
i can't help but totally spasm if she's in the vicinity because part of it is, she kind of suspects she's not the brightest bulb in the string, but she honestly thinks no one knows.
she's constantly trying to say smart stuff, and IT'S PAINFUL!!!! it's really truly absolutely PAINFUL. kk and the worst part? she thinks that when she's at her dumbest, ppl think its cute. yeah. i said cute.
and i'm sorry if this offends anyone but i seriously had to vent after being stuck in the same place with this girl for a whole freakin HOUR. like ... does she realize she said the same thing SIX TIMES???? and when it was pointed out that she was repeating herself ... she kinda giggled cos she thought it was a joke.

the most painful part of it? if there is a god, i think this girl should sue. cos she's not great to look at, she not fun to be around (unless ur the kind of person that has to be around truly stupid ppl to feel good about urself), and she's been seriously shortchanged in all departments.

... on a scary note ... yanno, the girl i'm describing ... she was totally crushed that this guy she was stalking (honey, i'm sry but when ya do the schtuff ya do, that's called stalking!!!!) got her to give him *cough* manual satisfaction and then told her to get lost.

ummmmm ... it should be like totally against the law to take sexual advantage of mentally challenged ppl like her. seriously. cos that guy HAD TO REALIZE her flashlight is a couple batteries short.

and she still likes him! gawd.

i'm ba-a-a-a-ack ...

whoa ... it's been a long time since i posted, eh. not that there haven't been thingzzzz goin' down ... just that i had to think about it before i whacked em onto the ol' machine. a lot to think about. opted to go with mindless schtuff for the nonce. at least for the year. too much happening in my life right now to commit to more than what i've got on my plate. "thought you were the ultimate geekess???" he asked. well ... right now, no. not in the near future either.
u ever get in the situation where ya just don't want commitments? its like ... everywhere u turn, someone neeeeeeeeds something. ur attention. ur time. a piece of ur heart. and u start feelin like one of those beaches, yanno? like ... u started out sandy and cool and schtuff and every wave that comes in drags off a little more of ur sand, every kid that wanders by finds a little piece of u that they wanna take to remember u by, and those damned birds keep flyin overhead and crappin on ya.
yeah.
i feel like a beach.