what do i want to know?

geesh what a question.

yanno, its not like i carry around a handy dandy list of questions like some kind of survey or something. yes, i have questions and doubts and concerns and all of that going thru my mind -- isn't that the way human minds work??? (yes i'm ranting again lmao)

be honest with yourself ... when you like or dislike a person it isn't like or dislike the whole person but just bits and pieces ... parts of that person. you can like a person but really dislike certain things about that person, right? or someone you just totally despise might have certain characteristics that aren't totally loathsome, right?

its like ... OH HELLO people aren't just cardboard cut outs, yanno. so i'm not instantly liking or disliking a person. where's the crime in that??? i'd rather know more before deciding what i think. i don't buy makeup or clothes without thinking it through and i don't even much care about how i look, so why should people expect me to whack out an instant opinion about something more important?

too many times we waste a whole lot of time and energy expecting other people and things to be what we ourselves are not. i can care about a person and still not like some of the choices that person makes. i can dislike a person and still think that he or she has some redeeming qualities. i can be religious and yet despise the rigidity and ritual of organized religion.

if you don't want to hear an opinion unless it totally agrees with what you want to hear, then why bother asking me what i really think? when i say i don't know really know yet, isn't it kind of immature to ask WHEN i'll know? or WHY i don't know yet? or to simply assume that when i ask questions its because i don't like a person? geesh

this kind of thing gets blown all out of proportion. people weird out like they think the whole world except them should be in terms of black and white and i guess i'm just tired of it.