makes you think

am i over-reacting?

being raised in a subculture that emphasizes self-control while the culture at large emphasizes self-expression ... that gets tricky. on the one hand, you're proud when you don't lose control of your temper in front of other people ... and on the other hand, you're still seething with stuff you SO want to say, yanno?

kind of like a noh play.

but then, there's the flip side of the coin ... when a person just seems ....... for lack of a better word, blank. a cipher. a void. when the only emotion you ever see is either nonchalance or aimless happiness. makes you sort of worry about what the mask conceals.

there's this person who makes me worry that way. you ask what the person wants to do, and the person says "whatever." you vent and rage about something or someone, and the person just smiles and says "as long as you're not mad at me." you dance around and babble about something totally awesomely cool, and the person just smiles and says "that's nice."

you sort of want to reach over and whack the person just to see an emotion. but then, its a little scary to think how the person might react, yanno?

so when you ask me what i think, i have to ask, what am i sposed to think?