the past haunts you

ouch.

it's sort of comforting but also appalling that your past is attached to you like a shadow ... it just keeps popping up like zits or something. and people don't remember things the same way you do, you know? it's like something that you think was totally traumatic and best buried and forgotten for eternity, someone else will remember later on and say "omg that was so cuuuuuuuuute" or something really putrid like that or even remember the whole thing as sort of funny and cute ... and you're forced to evaluate the whole painful experience from another point of view.

it's like ... what's WRONG with this picture ......

and its so strange to think that at the same time, things you didn't even notice bothered someone for YEARS, you know? sort of makes you wonder ... would i have done it differently if i knew that here we are, years later, and we're suddenly talking about something like this?

........ no. i don't think so. i mean, that could really get messy. the whole idea of constantly trying to anticipate future weirdnesses

ew